The Cement Garden

So. Fucked. Up.

Such creepy little children star in this novel and I feel like they violated me.  The back cover of my copy says "Ian McEwan excavates the ruins of childhood and uncovers things that most adults have spent a lifetime forgetting -- or denying".  Excuse me?  MOST adults?  What adults are out there hiding the fact that they shoved their dead relative in a cement casing and left them in the basement, while they touched their naked siblings in front of a six year old?  And why is Jack such a fucking dick?  Jesus christ, no consequences in this world of McEwan's, I tell you (yeah, yeah, I know, the end).

I'm thoroughly creeped out by McEwan now as I think back on all of the other books I've read by him.  I feel like he has this weird thing with "naughty" children that's perverse and disturbing.  With that said, there's still five (FIVE!?) books left on the list with his name on them.  I feel like this is completely unfair of the list and totally biased, but hey, who am I to say.

I mean, I guess he did a good job writing an interesting story that successfully haunts you, but man, I want this book far away from me.

The Hours

Lovelovelovelovelovelove

I adore Michael Cunningham's The Hours.  He writes in the female perspective in such a relatable way, it seems more honest a job than I could ever do as a woman myself.  The Hours makes ordinary thoughts so tragic with an irresistibly everyday beauty.  His voice was so effortlessly intimate that it felt like it was always me only, alone with and quietly guarding each character, sharing a profoundly close yet unnoticed (by them) interaction with them.

Not only does it stand by itself in its charm, but this book made me appreciate Woolf's Mrs. Dalloway in a way that I couldn't achieve on my own.  That's skill, if I may.  Cunningham seamlessly weaves plot points and themes from one narrative to the next, while echoing pages from Woolf's own novel, jarring personal memories of familiar yet distant pages.  It causes a strange effort to interact with the story, activating personal uncertainties and deja vu, scanning your own mind for real or invented memories.  On top of all that, Cunningham's ability to blend fact and fiction into one beautiful concoction wins trust somehow, inviting one to stay awhile and let go, soak it all in and steep in it.

Who hasn't at one time felt the desperation that Virginia, Clarissa, and Laura have felt?  There is comfort in knowing that one is rather ordinary, after all.

I will most definitely be watching the film this weekend to keep my love affair for this one going.

Thursbitch

After a long and empty novel, a short but powerful one.

What a haunting little book Thursbitch by Alan Garner is.  The narrative is melodic, with a darkness that hangs over you like a heavy blanket.  The story alternates between two timelines; Jake Turner's in the 1700s, and a more modern one, both set in Thursbitch, a mysterious English valley.  The dialect in the former narrative is a bit hard to understand as it is an old regional English that sounds a bit Irish to me (forgive me for my ignorance), and as the book opens with Turner's story, I was at first wary to embrace the book.  But Garner's ability to weave plotlines from past to present had a refreshing outcome that kept the story from becoming too tiresome, and had me more and more engaged as the pages were turned.

A bit of fantasy and plenty of drama, the book is less of a mystery as I first thought it would be, than an updated folktale.  The transformation of Turner from a loving husband to a raving madman is emotional and beautiful, and the stillness of the landscape is a powerful contrast to this.  Artfully done.

Celestial Harmonies

Oh man. This was a struggle for me.  It literally felt like I was sitting with a stranger for months on end listening to his personal stories, but never once got any closer to knowing who he is as a person or anything substantial about his past even though that is literally all he talked about.  I expected to come out of this experience at least gaining some history on Hungarian nobility, but even that was a bust.  How could I have gotten so little from 841 pages!?

I don't even know what to say.  There seem to be about 5 people on GoodReads who had a good time reading this book, but they (besides one guy who has his own reasons) offer no reasons why except for vague sentences that seem like they don't really know what they're talking about and just want to look like they appreciate a notable book.

What baffles me is that this is a modern work.  It reads like it was written a hundred years ago, despite the "contemporary" style of writing.

Do I recommend this?  Nope, definitely not for someone with my taste in literature.  Do I regret the months I spent reading it with no joy to show for it?  I guess all I can say to that is "Look at my willpower to finish this list".  Peter Esterhazy, you're just another notch in my bookshelf.